The article "Fear of Recurrence" is about cancer, it has been written by Jean Wensink.
I love it that I have been a canecr survivor for just over a year.
I have gotten my life back, I am working again, my hair is grown in, and I can pretty much life my life the way I would like to.
However, the joy of life can sometimes be shadowed by the fear of canecr recurrence.I am an ovarian cancer survivor. My chanecs of recurrence is about 80%. Today I returned at the clinic for a blood draw so that my test results are back for my one year check-up. Just being back in the chemo room and getting my blood drwan brought back the memories like a floodgate.
The nurses "oohed" and "ahhed" over my new hair, and offered hugs of celebration.
It was a great feeling to be on the side of remission.Yet, the threat of cancer recurrence will haunt my thoughts whenever I am reimnded of those chemo days.
How do I keep the fear from paralyzing me?
Will I ever be able to handle a recurrence if it should happen? When will the cancer nightmare ever end?
I may never be able to answer those questions, but I do know that I had life yesterday. I will rejoice in the here and now.
I will parise God for what each day, each opportunity, and each blessing that He bestows upon me. I need to give my life up to the Lord and trluy put Him in the driver's seat of the vehicle of my life. He is the best dirver I could ever want, and I will just appreciate the ride.
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